Hello, I am kinda awkward so bear with me. I'm fairly young just college age and I don't want to feel the way I do and I want to get better and fix what I continue to do to myself through isolation. In the past 3 or so years I shoved all of my friends out of my life until the only one I had left was my Fiancèe, and after the pressure of how I am got to her she left too, just last week. I don't want to have these thoughts or continue to go through the pain of attempts. I want to get better but I don't have any support and I get really anxious when I am around people Physically. I really am nervous about posting here but I want to try. Thank you.