Hello to anyone out there who might read this. I've never been very good at introductions so I might as well just jump right into what brought me to this website. I've been contemplating suicide on and off for about 14 years, and seriously for the last 18 months. It's been a combination of things that have led me to this point, starting with my parents' divorce when I was 13. I have recently gone through a Ch. 7 bankruptcy as well and I truly feel like I cause more trouble and worry to my family by being alive versus the alternative. I haven't been happy in a very, very long time and I don't know how much longer I can live like this.