Hi not really sure what to say, so a little about myself I am 26 and live in the east coast of the US. I have been struggling with suicidal feelings all my life, my childhood was very lonely as has been adult life. I don't think I ever made a real connection with anyone ever. I am currently in school studying international relations (MA) and while I do love it, I am petrified of the future. I am severely overweight, probably have an overeating disorder (but never been diagnosed), I am trying really hard to make life changes, including one of those weight loss surgery's, particularly its called a LAP Band, I hope to get it in December. My family is small but supportive which is nice but I have real trust and anger issues with them. Also I have had extensive therapy which helped but constant therapy for like 15 years have left me tired of it. I have medication that seems to work but still struggle with suicidal thoughts, although not nearly as much as I did when I was younger.