Hi all... I am a 30 something working mom/ wife leading a seemingly perfectly normal happy life. No one has any idea I am thinking about suicide again so I am glad to have found this forum where I know people understand what hopelessness feels like. I had two attempts as a teen and some depression since but no ideation until recently. I look forward to getting to know you. Sorry my introduction is scattered. I am jet lagged from traveling across 13 time zones and am sleep deprived in addition to feeling hopeless.