I just joined the forum a few days ago. Unfortunately I'm suicidal everyday all the time for the last year and a half. I got stressed out and it changed something in my brain and I haven't been the same since. I tried getting help numerous times, but nothing seems to work. Suicide isn't easy for me so I'm stuck living a life of pure hell. I just don't know what to do. I'm only 42 and can't bear the thought of having to live the rest of my life this way.