Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Gecklove, May 18, 2014.

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  1. Gecklove

    Gecklove New Member

    I have never done anything like this. I'm normally the one to do nothing but give, not ask for help.
    I've suffered from depression and anxiety since as long as I can remember, but I've never felt the need to do anything about it. No matter how unhappy I've been I always just push on and try my best to get over it. Never been to doctors or received any help.
    But lately I've been very... Self destructive, I guess, and I'm extremely worried I'm going to hurt others. I have been driving drunk(alone if I am the driver), hopping in drunk peoples cars with them, chain smoking(never smoked in my life until recently), among other things.
    I don't care about my life, but I care about others. Should I look into seeing a doctor? are there over the counter things I can take? I have tried what seems like everything from joining a gym, daily adventures into quiet, peaceful areas, fun parties and games with friends... I feel like there's not much left I can do.
    Advice? Please?
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry ADMIN


    I really think seeing a doctor would be a good idea. A doctor can point you in the right direction, give you some idea of where to start seeking help.
  3. ValentineBabe

    ValentineBabe Active Member

    Hi Gecklove welcome to sf, I'm new here as well and I'm sure you will find it as useful and encouraging as I have. Not only do you get to vent, ask for advice etc... but you you meet others dealing with very similar issues and often find yourself encouraging them. It's really a great community.
    I am no expert of course but I battle depression and anxiety as well have been for years. My advice would be seek help from a physician such as a psychiatrist and get on medication. If you're like me I resisted both for a long time thinking I could "cure" myself until it really just got the best of me and realized it was time. Your general physician can prescribe meds for both depression and anxiety if you can't find a psychiatrist right away.
    Also stay connected here to sf it really is a great source of encouragement. Wishing you well. Keep us posted.
  4. Caminho - lunar

    Caminho - lunar Active Member

    Welcome Gecklove don't be afraid to ask for help. Seeing a doctor it's a good way to start.
  5. Raphael1

    Raphael1 Well-Known Member

    Find a goal, something to achieve. Work on that goal until you achieve it. Something not too difficult, not to easy. something realistically achievable. Keep yourself busy completing the goal. When you achieve it, see how you feel after that and come back here and tell us about it.

    It can be anything from saving some money, to painting a picture, to making someone else's life slightly better in some way.
  6. Raphael1

    Raphael1 Well-Known Member

    Do you mean a psychologist? As this is to do with mental illness.

    Mood disorders, and anxiety disorders, usually can be treated with CBT, CT, And some medication as that has proven benifits.

    Medication is not the only treatment for this and people need to understand causes and prevention and just what makes a person healthy.

    It's not going to be very effective to just keep telling everyone to go to a doctor. I think they come to this forum because health services are lacking in the first place.
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  7. scaryforest

    scaryforest Banned Member

    yeah but they have said they haven't even been to a doctor, then it is def good advice. if anything they will learn from that experience also

    depending on what it is, might not even get meds and cbt but something more useful. though meds and cbt work for quite a few people too

    welcome. this forum is good for vents and sharing stories and anything at all that makes you unhappy or otherwise.
  8. Gecklove

    Gecklove New Member

    Thank you, everyone. Most of you are advising a doctor or psychologist, so I am guessing and hoping that something like that will be helpful. Has it helped most of you? Or people you know? I have never trusted doctors. I rarely see any as they never seem to help. But I have never seen a psychologist and I'm really anxious thinking about it. What if it doesn't help at all? What would I have left to do?

    As for goals, I feel like I have many. I want to move to Australia and work with a great friend there. I recently printed out paperwork for a passport and I want to research how to get a visa so I can live there for some time. I want to go to school if my life ever allows it. I breed a specific type of animal and would love to start a business doing it. etc.

    I am 22 now and since I graduated high school I have not mustered up enough motivation to do anything significant with my life. I haven't gone to college yet. I haven't had any real good jobs...I found a wonderful girl and we lived together for 2 years, but my depression and unhappiness drove her away. When I have something going for me it's almost always ripped out of my hands, whether from a freak accident or from my own stupid issues.

    What should my first step be? Find a nearby psychologist? See a generic doctor? I don't have a doctor I know, or that I would normally see. I recently lost my job due to fracturing my right arm, so I don't even think I could pay for it if I needed to.
  9. scaryforest

    scaryforest Banned Member

    hmm... have the doctor research free alternatives for you. doctor as in just an ordinary one, gp, they transfer you to specialists and such.
    if it doesn't work out, try meetings, venting and talking to people on this site also helps. the more specific one is, the more effective it should be.
    also if it does not work out, try a different doctor and a different specialist.

    i have found personally docs are very helpful for short term issues, not so much long run. a lot of people here say it is of no use. but some will share positive experiences
  10. normaljoe

    normaljoe Well-Known Member

    There are plenty of channels to go to for help. just search em in google. I now even Suicideforum offers a lot of help lines and chat websites that are anonymous. I reccomend you seek help. I personally have looked to use the online chat counselor multiple times....too bad my time zone is 6 hours behind :(
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