I have never done anything like this. I'm normally the one to do nothing but give, not ask for help. I've suffered from depression and anxiety since as long as I can remember, but I've never felt the need to do anything about it. No matter how unhappy I've been I always just push on and try my best to get over it. Never been to doctors or received any help. But lately I've been very... Self destructive, I guess, and I'm extremely worried I'm going to hurt others. I have been driving drunk(alone if I am the driver), hopping in drunk peoples cars with them, chain smoking(never smoked in my life until recently), among other things. I don't care about my life, but I care about others. Should I look into seeing a doctor? are there over the counter things I can take? I have tried what seems like everything from joining a gym, daily adventures into quiet, peaceful areas, fun parties and games with friends... I feel like there's not much left I can do. Advice? Please?