Hi Joshua:
I'm now 62, and interestingly enough, what "worries" me about you is not that you will "never" find a lover, but that you will accept far less than what you deserve.
I felt like you when I was 19. What made it worse was that I traveled playing music for a living at the time with men who were older and "successful" at finding girls.
I am introverted and not very talkative. It wasn't "in me" to strike up conversations with people I didn't know, even if they were male. Particularly not if female.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, there she was, sitting at the bar, looking at me. Radiantly beautiful, sophisticated, jeweled, wearing a brown pant suit with an elliptical cutout just where her magnificent cleavage was. (43 years ago but indelibly burned into my mind's eye). It took me 2 hours to gather enough nerve to speak to her.
She offered to take me to my room. Saying yes was my first mistake. Due to my very low self-image, an entire procession of mistakes followed the first.
This woman not only had "red flags", she had gigantic flashing neon signs. She was 24 years old, and divorced twice. She had a 3 year-old daughter and stated that she didn't actually know who her father was.
There she was, an experienced woman-of-the-world and there was I, a little church boy who was 19 and still a virgin. Not exactly a great formula for success.
She went off birth control and never told me. A baby son resulted. And I tried for the next 11 years to make a family with her, accepting her prior daughter as my own (and, still do, even though she is now 46, she has never known another "daddy") - but, pal, I
want to tell you, it was pure hell.