I'm not so sure what to say other than, I don't seem to have anyone that seems all that interested in what I want to say..so here I am. In a virtual group therapy. Will I kill myself? I don't know. I haven't felt like this in many years. But I just realized, it's kinda like riding a bike...you get on it again and "poof" it's like you've done it all your life. Same bike...new route...same elusive destination.