Hi everyone, I am new to this forum and joined because a month ago I tried to kill myself with an OD. A friend gave me CPR and revived me so here I am. I'm a 31 year old female living in The States. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and panic disorder. I have been suicidal since childhood. I can no longer afford to see a doctor since losing my job so I am not on any kind of medication right now. At this point I probably qualify for Medicaid but I'm scared to go to a doctor in case they commit me. All I know is that I don't want another 31 years of feeling like this. Thanks for listening.