I already feel awkward. Well, it's no different than how I normally feel, I suppose. Anyways, my name is Em, or at least that's what I prefer to be called. I've tried a few forums in the past and actually have found them to be quite helpful. Of course, that was a few years ago, before I realized there wasn't really any hope for me. Honestly, this is just a last attempt at getting better a few years too late. Might as well try, the worst that can happen doesn't scare me anymore.