I found this site a few weeks ago and decided it might be good to join. I keep lapsing in and out of hating myself and feeling sad (sometimes with reasons and others without). It kept me from getting much school done today and that doesn't help with anything. I'm a bit mad at myself because I haven't been able to get myself to talk to others about my problems and I know that's what I need right now. I guess I'm afraid no one will understand or they'll think I'm crazy. I wish I had a close friend I could talk to, someone who I could trust would love me despite anything wrong with me. It might be better for me to go searching for a friend like that than to join this forum, I'm terribly anti-social, though. I hope this can help somehow.