I'm new here. I've only lurked once or twice before. I don't really have a history in terms of suicide, but I started having these suicidal thoughts around December '06. And lately it's just escalated. Based on the posts I've seen you guys seem like such a great caring family, and I'm in desperate need of one, now more than ever. Out in the real world I'm extremely timid and/or antisocial. I also seem to look like I'm pissed most of the time, even though I'm not. The internet has become my loving friend and it's the only thing that makes me happy now, especially internet forums. I guess that's it for now. Oh, and I'm a guy. Just in case you were confused by my user name. Yeah.