Thought I should introduce myself. I struggle with depression on and off. I seem to get worse when I cannot get outside/with the winter. A lot of the time I am okay. The last month, I have been Really struggling again. I catch myself thinking of suicide and negative thoughts even when I am trying to stop them. So I googled to find a support place and found this site. REading through the posts, I can relate to all the intense feelings. I am trying to just accept myself the way I am.