I forgot to post here. I joined this board recently and I am surprised to know that there are so many ppl are thinking about the same thing as me. I have no hesitation to end my life. I have been imagining the scene of my last day for a long time. I don't want to continue my hell like life any longer. I'm so exhausted to live... I have read some posts so far and I am so greatful that so many members are so kind and have a warm heart.