Hello. I found this forum using google, i wanted to join up to a forum were i could talk to people that new what i was going through. At the moment there is not one bone in my body that wants to carry on this life, the only thing that is stopping me from taking my own life is the thought of what happens next. I know it sounds stupid, but i'm scared of what comes next, i just don't no what to do. My dad committed suicide 9 years ago also, i'm thinking maybe its in the gene! Anyways - Yeah..Hi.