Hi, New here. I'm in a different place mentally, emotionally than I've ever been in my life. No matter how I say the way I feel, it makes me feel like I' m having a "pity party" and have no right to. I never thought I'd be in a place where I needed someone like this. I've always been the strong one. Not sure where I am going from here. I am not sure that I want to die, but I am sure I don't want to live!!