Hello. I'm not sure how to say who I am, but for now I am L108935 (a serial # I memorized). Anyway, I am a high school student. 2 years ago I discovered something terrible: I am suicidal (obviously). After tons of searching for 2 long years, I believe I have bipolar disorder. I have only talked about my suicidal wants with one of my trusted friends, and I think our discussions saved my life (actually, I owe my life to her). I have picked up some really cool hobbies that I have found not help my condition really at all. From my experience, the only thing that makes me feel better is feeling the freedom of talking to others about my condition. BTW, I'm a little "happy" right now, so I'm saying way more than usual. This makes me so relieved, being able to post my secrets on these forums. I'm so glad I found this site.