My name is Petter, and I am 22 years old (I`m borned in December 1986), and live in Norway with my family, which means my parents and one dog. I have very much to tell, but first of all, I will thank you very much for this site and forum. I have been a member here for some few days now, and spended the time to read through some threads in hope to get some helpfull information, and I am very gratefull too you, because I feel a lot Viser now. I have learned to think more positive, and see more of the small things in life that can makes me happy. I`m very glad for that. Unfortunetly it is a lot of things that makes my life too a big hell. First off all, I was a very unpopular kid in the school time, and every day was like a living nightmare. In my life, I have just had one Girlfriend, and she brooke up after 8 months. That is almost 7 years ago. Since that i havent had any girl, and I am still virgin (unfortunetly). Now, I was in Job as a car mechanic as I am educated for, until I lost it for some weeks ago. That was very hard for me. Especially since it was the 3. Job I had lost since 2008. Every place I have worked on says the same about me: I am a perfect guy in many ways, but I didnt make to work effective enough. My parents are very nice and kind too me that let me live with them under their roof, but unfortunetly they have some realy bad sides too. Especially my mom. They tries to controll my life in a very sick way, and I have no privacy life. That is very hard for me. Off course I have talked too them about that, but they be angry and upset, and wont listen. I haven`t any real friends (and I have never had) and no one I can talk too about my situation and problems. I fantasize about suicide every day, but I know I am too week to make it (Unfortunetly). But in the last time It has been much more than usual. I havent talked to any shrinks and doctor, and I never will. I dont think them can help me. I dosent make to write anymore now..the keyboard is full of tears... Sorry for my bad english..