Hi, I'm a 29 year old girl and I'm married and just bought a house. I have a good job with a comfie salary and have achieved my career goals. I don't have that many friends but most people get along with me and don't have a problem with me. However, I'm extremely, extremely depressed. I am in a hole so big I don't know how to get out. Every single day is a struggle and I am losing my personality to this disease. I am on prozac which was working fine, but now I am going back into suicidal mode again. For the past month, I haven't eaten very much and have really just planned out my death. I have read about death, near-death experiences, others deaths, suicides, terminal illnesses etc, just to get more comfortable with the idea of death. I have have fleeting thoughts of suicide in my life before but never a month long binge of thoughts. NEVER this much. I think this is near the end of my lifespan. I just have to figure out how to end it. I am so miserable that every single day is a struggle and I can't make it better. I'm terrified of death and I don't want to hurt others around me but I also don't want them to suffer with me for years of depression.