I'm not sure how to introduce myself, I've never been any good at talking or expressing myself, so I'm just going to give it a shot. My name is Nathan. I am 17 years old and I'm autistic. I've been depressed for most of my life. I've nearly given up all hope. I'm about to fail year 12 and I don't even care. I have no plans for the future and don't see myself living for very long. When this year is over, my friends are all going to go their separate ways and I will slowly drift from them and eventually shut them out. I'm not even sure why I'm here. I guess I just feel so trapped and miserable. I've tried counseling, anti-depressants, nothing makes life bearable. Suicide is on my mind nearly every waking hour. I'm not sure how to finish this post, so yeah. Hello to everyone.