Hi, I'm 25 and have been on all sorts of meds since I was 15. So, ten years now, I've been in and out of hospitals. Attempted suicide 4 times, the rest were self injury incidents that got out of control. I don't know why I am here...or at least what I'm supposed to say. I guess right now, I just feel hopeless and suicide has crept it's way back into my head. I've been thinking about it for a couple of weeks now. I've been planning. I have a date set. I guess I'm here because a part of me doesn't want to follow through...? I'm scared. I haven't told anyone because thier solution to everything is the hospital because no one knows how to deal with suicidal person, I mean, even I don't. I'm not sure what I'm looking for... Thanks for reading all of that if you made it through.