Hi everybody, I'm new here and would just like to introduce myself. Yes, I am considering suicide. I really don't want to die, but the despair is just too great. I know it's possible that things could get better, but I honestly doubt that they ever will. By the way, my reasons are entirely financial. I've called those hotlines on and off over the last few years, and they just suggest to get counseling. I'm open to that but none of them are free so it would only be making matters worse. The main thing holding me back is that I have a daughter. The other thing is that all of the possible methods are pretty frightening to me, and I'm afraid that I wouldn't be successful. But I am coming to the realization that go for it anyway. For whatever it's worth, I really don't necessarily see that ending my life would be wrong or a bad thing, despite what all the other sites say. Seriously, what is the point of living in misery? And it's not that I'm not grateful for having lived already, I am. Anyways, I really don't see any good alternative. Continuing on like this doesn't appeal to me at all. I could do something to cause me to have to go to prison for the rest of my life, but I certainly don't want to hurt anybody else, and that kind of life doesn't appeal to me at all, either. I wish I could spend the rest of my life in a mental hospital, but I'm certain that wouldn't be possible. I guess I'm basically stuck. The only thing I can do is sit here and read about suicide all day. Oh one other thing.. I probably am clinically depressed but even if so, getting treated for that would not change my financial situation. Yes, the more I think about this the more I'm coming to the conclusion that this would be a logical and brave solution. Sometimes when I feel convinced that I will have to do it, I actually feel happy and a sense of relief. Anyway, thanks for reading.