Hi everyone, I'm not really sure how to start this...so here goes. Life really, really sucks. I'm 27. I am unemployed (since Sept.), my only real life friend is my boyfriend. I am lonely all the damn time, but I have no idea how to reach out to people and make friends. I am a pretty messed up person. I have depression with psychosis, anxiety disorder, mild ocd, an eating disorder, rheumatoid arthritis and I've been self harming since I was 11. I've attempted 4 times, been hospitalized twice and to be honest, life is worse now. I'm in debt and everyone thinks I'm crazy. I can't afford to see a doc anymore and I will be out of meds in two weeks. The only things keeping me going are my parents, my dogs and the fact that I can't think of a way to do it that will actually work and not land me back in inpatient. thanks for listening to me whine.