The thread title is either cliché or to the point; whichever you prefer. I went looking for a forum after reading a recent article about two people in a suicide pact and I'll admit I was kind of jealous. My misery began at least fifteen years ago. As soon as the innocence of being young wore off and I began to realise how people were really treating me. I never fit in and I'm not the person they expect me to be. I'm the the type to thrive off being unique and different and honestly I've just always wanted to be accepted even though I never am. School taught me two important things: people are nasty and selfish and apparently I'm racist and a bully. Yeah, didn't get that last one myself but I probably am. I'm working on a will to describe my feelings in full. It's as sad to write as it is to read but at least it's honest. I'm also including various login's and passwords for my email addresses, sites and forums along with possible instructions for what to do with them including a last message from me informing them of my death and perhaps some kind final words. I do worry that people might take them as a joke though so maybe that's not the best idea. I suffer from this problem that I'm a big thinker and have a huge imagination. This doesn't help because I can't let comments and criticism slide, I will think about them over and over and over until my head exploded and NOTHING will ever change that. It's gotten worse in that the little things that I DO enjoy and help make life worth living are constantly ruined by peoples nasty actions and comments when I always try to be friendly and informative. I've had enough of people and I've had enough of the world. It's getting to the point where I actually wish that I could kill a lot of people as well as myself so that they no longer suffer and they can't make others suffer. If I had a button that could painlessly kill all humans in the world I would have pushed it several times and punched it hard a good few as well many, many years ago. Life is just too difficult and painful and can't cope like normal people; I'm just too pathetic. I really don't want to spend useless time going over reasons, excuses or trying to defend why someone as pathetic as me wishes to die, but that's it. I really don't blame anyone for wanting to commit suicide. I just want it all to end.