I don't really know where to start, so here goes nothing. I'm 19, college dropout, work a minimum wage job, have no girlfriend, no hope of getting one. I'm not good enough for any girl to actually like. There's no point in continuing to exist here. Every single girl on this planet either thinks that I'm a worthless, ugly piece of shit that doesn't deserve love, or would if she knew me. I hate myself and I want to die. Every single attempt to try to find a girlfriend has been met with failure. Every single one. Hundreds of attempts. That's not an exaggeration. Literally hundreds. There's no reason for me to live here when I'm going to die alone anyway. Why not just end it now? Why in the FUCK shouldn't I just end it now? It isn't like anybody gives a shit about me. Honestly I don't see the point in going on. I hate myself so much, I just don't wanna exist anymore. Getting made fun of everyday in school sure as shit didn't help. Having girls laugh in my face and call me a loser does wonders for your self esteem. I mean...where the fuck do I go from here?