Hi! I'm in my early twenties, and have been having ideation for hmm... 2 years strongly, but off and on since I was around 15. Ed, etc. However I'm also a 'professional' and feel incredibly ashamed/alone. It's a tricky position to be in because I know many people working within all the formal help resources where I live! I'm also incredibly worried this will get traced somehow by someone I know/work with... then again it's funny I think most people have something, even if they don't talk about it. I'm staying alive for my parents and my dog; having said that I feel worse about it because I can't even manage to look after my dog or be a particularly wonderful daughter. That's pretty much it. I joined both as a support network for myself, but also hopefully to support others. Trying to make a positive out of this mess! Thank you! a.