Hello, I'm not familiar with how to go about posting something like this, and i'm not quite sure what can and can not be said here about how i'm feeling, though it's quite obvious why i'm posting haha. Anyhow, i've been feeling a bit down for awhile now, mostly because I had lost a son recently, but today it hit a bit hard. I suppose everything is going somewhat productive, though i'm currently looking for a job, sort of rationing my food supply, mainly so my wife is able to eat a decent meal. I had damaged one of my toes today and could not go to the doctor, mainly just for the ignorance of the idea of the "bills" that really shouldn't be considered in this type of situation, but i've already got more than a lifetime worth of payments to make to the er, so i had to take care of it myself which was not at all a good thing. So i suppose my whole problem is just that things have been going up and down so drastically lately that i've fallen into a serious mindset of ending it, which i know logically is not a good way to handle things, as well as my thoughts on emotions like anger or sadness being by-products of true emotions like frustration or confusion (we all become frustrated/confused but we don't need to go to anger or sadness, which are what comes from those...not sure if i'm making sense) Sorry for the long post.