Hi everyone I like this place, seems nice, so i'll just write an anonymous intro to my anonymous life. I'm 23 years old, i'm not stupid but i've no proof i'm smart. I didn't do great at school (in the UK), I got grade C at most subjects which is, like the rest of my life, decidedly average. I've basically been bi-polar since I was old enough to work out what it was, bi-sexual aswell which probably has something to do with it (i'm in the closet with another billion people who keep themselves to themselves). This bi-polar-ness has basically destroyed me over the last few months. It's not seasonal, i've had this before, but it doesn't want to go away this time. So yeah, to whittle it down, i'm kinda out of it, lust for life no longer there and my brain and heart have run out of life so that last 1% of my brain still functioning wants to cry for help. I can feel it begging for someone to tell my lovely story to so i'm telling it to a moderator who will hopefully approve my post so that I can see your lovely replies . Hrmph... do you guys know that thing where suicide seems entirely rational the more you think about it? It will seem irrational no matter what to anyone else, because it's Game Over, insert credits etc, but no matter how long I leave it, it becomes more and more rational. Ok anyway i'll see what happens... I totally understand your need to filter out anybody who wants to post stupid/hateful comments so the moderator thing and membership requirements to see the cry for help forums are necessary but it doesn't bode well for someone who wants out and needs to shout about it. Just sayin'. Thanks for reading however much you read. Ps My name's not Shuya, it's from an uber-fantastic book i'm half way through.