I'm a 46 year old woman with three kids. my marriage is failing and the hurt is so bad i can't take it. i love my children but its not enough some days. i need help. i need this pain to stop. i can't take it. i'm not here for my kids, they irritate me. i'm not here for myself. i irritate me. it all hurts. i cry all the time. i don't know how to make it stop. i'm seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist but i can't afford it and they tell me i'm doing everything right. everything right it too painful. what can i do? i need this to stop. stop/.