Hi everyone! Well I'll tell my situation. I'm a 16 year old girl. I was suicidal when I was younger, but lately I've been finding myself having thoughts again. I've been struggling with depression for about 6 years, and it is my current battle. I come from a family that isn't willing to talk about my issues. They block it out as just stress and it'll pass. I even went to my mom, and broke down. I told her my feelings and that I wanted help. She told me to stop the thoughts and tough it out, because she did. No one believes me, because I seem happy. Unfortunately I've found myself putting up walls and locking everyone out. I push all my emotions down, and it is self-destructing me.
I currently work a 38 hour job, and it is hard. A few of my co-workers pick on me because I'm the youngest, and it really makes my day that much harder. My best friend got a boyfriend, and she will drop our plans to run to him. I used to see her everyday, now I'm lucky if I see her once every other week. I feel like I have no one I can talk to and really let my walls build up. I want to let people in, but I feel like they aren't willing to try.
I've never really told anyone about my feelings. I tried to tell my friend but I got the whole 'oh my gosh my life is so hard' reply. I don't want to live like this, I want to be truly happy. I don't want to fake smiles anymore.
Thank you for reading my story. I really appreciate it.
I currently work a 38 hour job, and it is hard. A few of my co-workers pick on me because I'm the youngest, and it really makes my day that much harder. My best friend got a boyfriend, and she will drop our plans to run to him. I used to see her everyday, now I'm lucky if I see her once every other week. I feel like I have no one I can talk to and really let my walls build up. I want to let people in, but I feel like they aren't willing to try.
I've never really told anyone about my feelings. I tried to tell my friend but I got the whole 'oh my gosh my life is so hard' reply. I don't want to live like this, I want to be truly happy. I don't want to fake smiles anymore.
Thank you for reading my story. I really appreciate it.