I am new here. Lifelong depression that sometimes gets out of control, now is one of those times,also have PTSD which after many years I seem to have got more or less on top of and only occasionally get flashbacks and nightmares these days.
Why am I here? I am really strugglinf at the moment,for a couple of weeks now I keep thinking about suicide. There is no reason that I can discern as to why I am so low at the moment.
I have made attempts during my life but I have never planned it, I seem to switch off for a while then realise what I have done. I am not sure I am explaining this well, but,I never want to do it -I just do it. Right now I am so low I can see history repeating itself, I am safe as long as there is someone around but being on my own worries me because I have been here so many times before and one day it will work but it is not what i want ,when I am alone there is opportunity and I may take it even though I know it is not the answer I am looking for.
Welcome to SF, Johnnie. I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with issues from PTSD. I hope you can lean on us here and find some happiness and strength with us. This forum has helped me immensely, so I hope it does the same for you!
:welcome: to SF Johnnie. I am glad you chose to join our community. Depression does not care who its victims are and we do need to be reminded that there are people who do care about us. You will find that to be true here. Many can relate to the issues you face and together we can walk down that path so it is not always so lonely. Reach out to us as you feel the need. Someone will be there. :hug: