I've had daily suicidal thoughts for at least a decade, which have intensified over time as I've aged (I'm now 32). I'm mainly coming on this site because my wife, who has known for years that I have this problem, recently lost her sister to suicide. Out of respect for her grief, I now stay silent about my own problem, but it intensifies when I never discuss it. Still, I'm not sure I'm ready for detailed disclosures, so just let me say that this site, as I look through it, makes me feel less alone. Thank you everyone for being so candid about your troubles.