Hi Brokenexchanges wow congratulations on being clean 4 years way to go hun. I hope you can talk with your doctor hun see if you can get something for the manic stage of this depression to help level it out some
My best friend is bipolar and it took several years to get her on the right medication. Once she found the right psychiatrist and they got the meds right, life got a whole lot better for her and she is healthy and happy now. The right meds made all the difference for her.