I just posted in the crisis forum, but I suppose I should have introduced myself first. -You can call me Zasu or Tam. - I struggle with severe depression, thoughts of suicide, anxiety and insomnia, and have for as long as I can remember. As I type this, I am at an all time low. - I am a 40 year old artist and metalsmith. Business sucks and I'm really struggling for inspiration lately. - I married my partner of 12 years this past June. She (and my boys, see below) are truly all I live for. - I have 2 adorable, elderly mutt-children who I love more than almost any human being. - I am a survivor of childhood physical, mental, emotional and sexual abuse. - I am also a survivor of rape and attempted rape in my early 20's. - I am recovering addict, roughly 18 years clean. - I have been estranged from family for most of my adult life, but no longer "hide" and have spotty contact with most of my immediate family of origin. - I've been an insomniac all my life. I almost never sleep more than 3 hours a night, and will often go days without any sleep at all. - I hate mirrors, cameras and angry confrontation. - I have no tolerance whatsoever for racism, homophobia, sexism and animal cruelty. - After years in treatment, I'm pretty good with offering sincere advice, but have a lot of difficulty practicing what I preach. Glad to meet you all.