Hi people. First of all, thanks if you're taking the time to read this. I don't really know what to say. I just know that I'm miserable and that I wish I was dead or that I was never born in the first place. No one gives a shit about me. I know that. (Not that I'm blaming them or anything). I'm sorry to waste your time. I won't kill myself, or at least I don't think I will. I couldn't do it, and I don't really have the guts, I think. However, I do fantasize about doing it all the time. I just wish I was dead so bad. I'm so fucking sad all the time. Sometimes I wish I could cry. Yesterday I was feeling so incredibly miserable and sad it actually hurt. Physically. I cut. Sometimes I just feel like stabbing myself. I can't stand this awful being that I am. I really can't stand it. I'm sorry, I just don't know what to say. I'm desperate. Everything is so pointless and futile. I don't know what to do anymore. I'll stop wasting your time now. Thank you.