New here. Feels kinda weird to be on this forum but since I don't want to scare my family and sometimes I scare myself I figured I will just talk to other people who get it. I'm a 32 year old female, married with two kids. Surprisingly I'm mostly optemistic but every year or so I sink down into a really black place. I feel like I was born with an extra helping of darkness that I'm very good at hiding. My husband is the same way actually. Depression runs heavily in both our families and although we are there for each other, I don't want to burden him with worry about me. My oldest daughter (12) is bipolar and dealing with that has gotten me really down lately. So... here I am.