Well, i 've been dealing with depression for about 4 years now.. and I've had some ups and downs, but right now I'm pretty much at my worst.. and that's saying something cause about two years ago I attempted suicide and nearly succeeded.. I was working a few months ago at a fast food place as a manager, so it was a pretty good job. But then the stress started getting to me and I couldn't handle it anymore so I quit.. I've been living off of social security, which i have because I can't keep a job camuse I of depression and anxiety.. and I'm living with my cousins right now.. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend right now.. all I do with my time is sit around and watch movies and cry.. it sounds pathetic, but I can't reallly do much else... I turned 21 in april and I spent my birthday at home by myself. I would have gotten drunk but I didn't have any money to buy the booze.. But anyway, that's irrelevant. The reason I'm writing this is because I'm getting sick of crying all the time. And I wish I had someare the best thing I've fene to talk to other than my cousins dogs.. I don't have insurance right now.. so I don't know what to do. I don't know how I can get help.. I've started burning again, which upsets me because I had gone a year without it, but I needed to find a way to feel good.. even if just for a few minutes. It's like a drug, I guess.. the endorphins blah. I'm sorry but I'm typing this on my phone and it's being weird, so excuse the typos and whatnot. I want to stop feeling so badly.. the only thing stopping me from taking my life is the fact that I don't want to cause my family and pain.. but I'm running ouut of options and the urges are started to take over... I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions, I guess?