Hi everyone, I am new. I have been preparing to commit suicide and to succeed this time, the last time, end of January, I failed. I dont feel sad or upset this time i just feel ready and calm about it, i dont know whats more scary. I am a burden to my family and they would be much better off without me, i have been tidying up and putting house in order so they wont have to worry too much about anything when i am gone. I am just scared it wont work again.