:welcome: to the forum. Sorry to hear the meds are not working well for you. Does an adjustment need to be made perhaps? I know what it feels like to be at the point you don't feel you can take another minute of the pain. But somehow we do and things go on. Do you have people around you you can get support from? Is there anything you can do that will distract you and get your thoughts going in a different direction? I am glad you decided to join us here. i hope we are able to provide you with some level of support. :hug: