Now that I've finally found this place, I'm not sure what to write. I have been suicidal for several years now, and I really don't know what to do. Some pills took care of my depression, but I'm still having problem with the living part. I've been doing ok for a couple of weeks now, but today everything was changed. I pulled away from my friends, like I allways do when I'm suicidal, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to meet tomorrow. A part of me wants to live, but I'm not sure how to do that. I've been living like a robot for so many years, that I've forgot how to really LIVE. I guess the reason that I'm writing this, is that I need some advice of how to be able to live again, to manage to think positive, because the life I'm living is not worth living anymore.