Hey you,
I know I haven't responded since I replied to your post about your Mom, and I told you what I went through with mine. I have been following your threads though. I'm sorry to hear that when you confronted her, that it not only made you both feel bad, but she didn't help with the response you needed.
So, now you have moved away from her, and in with your aunt, and you feel really bad. I was curious, is you Aunt your Mum's sister? If she is, she may be more sensitive to her than to you, but you will still need a place to live.
I mentioned the first time about trying to forgive your Mum for yourself, and to do it without waiting for her to "confess" her mistakes, and I hope you can still find a way to do that. She doesn't believe she did anything but the best that she could, and so did my Mom, but WE feel differently.
As for people on here that you think don't care about you because they don't "know" you, that is untrue, and speaking for myself, I have been in similiar circumstances in my life, so I DO care and understand to the best of my ability.
You come here for support, but act as though you don't believe that there is real concern from those here, but that is what this forum is for- Caring for people we may not have met in real life, but we share common bonds with. Bonds of unhappiness, depression, unresolved issues etc. I know we all have days that we feel no one cares, I know I do, so I come here. Not one person knows me here, but the support I have received so far, I believe in. If I couldn't come here, where else would I go? Obviously, I come here because those in my life are not helping me, and I need someone, anyone, to listen. I believe you need that too.
So please keep coming here and posting, and try to feel the cyber hugs and tears that are for you and your life. At least I can speak for myself and say, "I do care about you and what happens to you, because I have felt that pain."
You didn't know this, but the first time I left home, I moved in with my Aunt, I didn't stay long, but eventually that first move put me on my path to life. I have struggled, and I still do, but I feel better not being under my Mom's thumb.
I hope you start to feel better, and I hope that this helps.
Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle
