Hello. I wondered over here from the Social Anxiety Support forum. I am a 22 year old male in California. My problem is, in addition to having social anxiety, that I am horribly love-shy. For anyone who does not know what that means, a love-shy man is a guy who is scared shitless to approach women, but strongly desires a relationship. All I ever think about is getting a girlfriend and eventually getting married. I also have a stong desire for kids some day, but in my condition that will never happen. Yes, I do feel suicidal, but one thing that really keeps me from wanting to kill myself is the fact that I have yet to have a loving experience with a girl. If I die, then it will certianly never happen. By loving experience, I don't just mean sex, but just dating, kissing, holding hands, talking for hours, etc. Just the idea of touching a girls arm makes me feel all tingly inside. I would love to be with a girl, hold hands with her, and touch her beautiful hair. So many girls out there are so beautiful. I would love to hang out in the park or go for a walk while holding hands. What would it be like to find out that a girl has had a crush on me? Now that really makes me feel tingly inside! I get angry whenever I hear about a girl who is in love with a guy who mistreats her and abuses her. This one girl use to tell me about how her boyfriend physically beat her and how horrible it was. Yet she stayed with him. I could tell she was in love with him. I can't for the life of me figure out why. I would never beat on a girl or mistreat her like that. But this girl found nothing attractive in me, and that really frustrates and saddens me. Why are so many girls attracted to jerks? Why are girls so turned off to shy men like me? It's not like I lie, play games, cheat, abuse, or talk down to women. Another issue is that I have no friends. Literally, no friends whatsoever. I hardly talk to anyone at college anymore, and I never hang out with anyone. If I am not in school or at work, I am usually at home sitting in front of my computer. My social anxiety makes it extremely difficult for me to get out. Right now I feel like I am about to lose my mind because I have no one to talk to now. No one at all. There is so much going on, a lot of which I will refrain from mentioning right now so this post is not incredibly long. There is a lot of stuff I left out. I just need a person to talk to. I need friends. I need someone who accepts me for who I am and at least TRIES to understand me. Please PM me. There is a lot of stuff I want to talk about. I would also just like to get to know someone. I prefer females, but guys are certianly welcome too. If you are a worried about me trying to hit on you, just say you aren't interested in me like that, and I will respect that. Looking forward to hearing from someone!