Help me. It hurts. I can't go to my gp because he will refer me to crisis team. I know.everyone in there as I worked with them in the same building. They know my never-to-be boyfriend and he doesn't know how I feel. Staying in bed all day, not even eating. I don't want my children to see me like that, yet I can't move... trying to hold on till tuesday counselling. Why didn't I jump yesterday?