Hey! It's been a long time that I haven't visit this forum. For the past few months I felt into a severe depression, the good news is I managed to put my life back together for a couple of months. I have a friend... I'm a guy, and she's a girl. Boy oh boy we are close like we're dating. We talk to each other on the phone everyday, we tell stories about our lives and share happiness. I'm so happy to meet her, like she's a greatest thing ever. As a guy, I am socially viewed to be more 'responsible'. Maybe not many people really agree on that, but I feel that way. A man needs to provide some comfort, security, and also wealth to a woman. Enough the good news, here's a bad news: my friend right there, is a great person. No I mean, really... an amazing talented famous person. She's a musician, an icon, a teacher, and also she does well in class. She's a goddess to everyone, she has a lot of fans, she makes a lot of money in her age, her story is written in a lot of newspapers, magazines, and public television. To make everything as straight as possible, she's perfect. What about me? I'm just an amateur paper cutting artist and a psychiatric patient. I really don't make much money, I'm just... an ordinary man. The only thing that I can do for her, is to be her friend. I'm also close to her family, heck I even feel closer to her family more than my family. Her father loves to tell everything about her daughter (she's an only child), well of course... he's a proud dad. Her dad is also amazing, making tons of relations with newspapers, public televisions, some other famous people in the government, artist, musician, and public figures. He always tells everything about her daughter, like... she's been doing a concert in front of 15,000 people, met a hollywood dancer, has so many fans, teach a lot of people about music, and bla bla bla. I'm not blaming him, well... he's telling the truth, he is really proud. But behind every smiles and every attention that I made to listen to what her father said, my heart broke. I feel useless, like I feel worthless, I feel so many regrets in my life. I can't even make one single success in my whole life, I'm not famous, I'm not amazing, I am... ordinary. A guy... just a plain guy. Her father once asked me, "hey, do you ever meet a person from the government?". Well I said no, but in my heart I said, "dude, I can't even put myself together! How do you expect me to meet someone like that?". I feel so depressed now, I always compare my life to hers. Which is not the best thing to do. I always try best to view her as my motivation. But at the moment that I fail in life, like... almost in everything, her dad's voice always haunts me. I feel like I need to be better than her, but that's just impossible. Like really, don't tell me something like "nothing is impossible, bla bla bla", it's just really plain impossible to achieve greatness like hers. I'm struggling alone in my own dreams, my parents never support me. Please help me, I don't wanna die like this. I know that she needs me to accompany her, and I don't really want to end this relationship... nor my life. Thank you for reading, I literally cried myself when I'm writing this.