Help me make up lies... please?

[Myaing]

I have to go to this "party" tommorow. And im starting to get fucking anxiety. I haven't lost anything there, and if im going, its only to support my friend... who doesnt really need me there as much as she thinks.
I wonder if i should make up some lies... i havent been to a single gathering this year. I just keep telling that im depressed and tired.... well, its true but im starting to feel stupid because i refuse every time. And i dont want my friend to think i dont want to hang out with her.
And now i hate myself more than ever. Im freaking out over every little thing. Im afraid i might snap and stab someone with a fork or something, if they start asking questions.... always with the, "uu, why are you so quiet?"
Like... leave me alone. I am my poison and my prison, and i will be my own reaper.

 

[Walker]

When I'm quiet at an event I typically go with "I'm not feeling so well"

 

[KindaOtiose]

Hi, anxiety sucks.

Maybe you could try to go and then find an excuse to leave if you have to? You could try "I'm feeling sick" or maybe pretend you have other arrangements with work or with your family. Maybe tell your friend you can only go for a limited time so you can leave if you feel like you need to.

Best of luck

 

[Myaing]

I guess going, and then going away is a neat idea. Win-win.