I'm safe. I don't think I can trust myself anymore, I can't stay on my own because the thoughts are coming back and it feels like they are taking control over my behaviour. I did some stupid things yesterday to sort all out, close things down. I burned some bridges.
I tried to kill myself yesterday, but my husband found me. Got really cross with me and said I can't be trusted - guess he is right. Not long for me to go, I sense the end is coming.