Hi, I don't know what to say, I'm a new member, but I feel so depressed I want to die. Right now I hate my parents, I don't even know why, but every time I look at them, I am just filled with hate. I know it would devastate them if I were to kill myself tonight, but part of me wants that. They are laughing and talking upstairs completely oblivious to the fact that I am crying my eyes out. I need someone to talk to-a living tangible person, but I have no one. If it weren't for my bird Pickles, I would have already done it. But I'm scared...I have never liked taking pills, and I know I wouldn't be able to take a bunch of them and I thought if I took a whole bottle of melatonin, it might work but apparently there is virtually no way to overdose one it, so now I don't know what to do. I'm afraid of hell! My parents are devout christians, and I'm agnostic, and I hate God if he exists for creating me when he knew I would be this depressed and then send me to hell. I don't know what to do...please help.