Hi! I signed up on the forum hoping that you can help me. Here is my life: I am 16 and i just sit in my room all day doing nothing. I can't go out because i don't really have any friends in my city, all the friends i have are in my grandparents's city where i spend my holidays. I never had a girlfriend, that hurts the most, i never even kissed a girl except this new year party but obviously she was drunk. There was one girl that i liked, and she liked me too but i couldn't even say a word in front of her, i am not really good at talking, so we just kept texting and that is it, she realised what an idiot i am. I've been thinking about suicide for about two years, i can't stand being alone anymore, i just want to meet someone like me, preferably a girl, someone i can go out and do everything with. I want to live my life, to do crazy things like getting on a train and going allover the country, but alone i can't do anything and i can't stand it anymore.