I want to end my life, just for the relief, I don't really want to die. I just want to get out of all these damn situations I am in. I am thinking I will go to the store tonight and buy charcoal and duct tape. I want to tape off one of the rooms here, take a shitload of pills, drink some, light the charcoal and let it burn while I sleep. It should be painless, i'll be asleep. If anyone knows of a more painless way, please say something. I just can't do this anymore.