I don't come on here very often, i survived 3 suicide attempts but the pain doesn't go and i struggle i feel so low i can't tell my wife but i see no future. I feel it is over i cry for help but no one listens. I know suicide is not the answer but i am so drawn to it . i failed in life no one wants to know me so why not just disappear? please please help before i finally do something right. i can't cope anymore . It's hard to admit but as a man i cry whenever i am alone. It is hard in england where the feeling is just pull yourself together and be a man. I'm sorry but i have failed at that.